Thursday, January 20, 2011
January 20...a random outburst of photography
When it was worthy of taking some pictures and before it got dangerous...
Monday, January 17, 2011
sludge
There are days when I would like nothing more than to give everything away, quit everything else, and walk into the world blindly. Nothing to encumber my steps and slow down my trajectory except overwhelming fear and the weight of the world on my shoulders and soul.
Friday, January 7, 2011
Saturday, January 1, 2011
crossing over
Like a lot of folks, I can honestly say that 2010 was a challenge. Looking back at it objectively, I truly did not suffer the brutality that many friends experienced and yet, 2010 was amazingly difficult. While the bigger things missed me for the most part and I am extremely thankful for this fact, the smaller things nearly did me in several times over.
There were times throughout the year when I truly wanted to wave the white flag and simply give up, because I didn't know where to turn, who to trust, and what to do. Things became blurred, facts became lies and there were no concrete answers in sight.
While I could very easily point the accusing finger at others, I take the blame for allowing others to twist my perspective and taint facts with things less than factual. Who's to say what is real anymore and does it really matter in the first place? Probably not.
What I can say is that I am truly surprised that I made it through the year. In some ways, I am probably a little disappointed that I did. This is especially true on those days when I feel like I was being attacked from every conceivable angle including from within.
Rather than go off on a long-winded blues jam, I just hope that 2011 gives me the strength and the clarity to see the goodness and just because someone claims to be a friend doesn't mean that they have my best interests and feelings in their heart. I hope that for the first time in a long time that I can feel something vaguely resembling peace and allow a blackened, dead soul to live again.
To anyone that finds themselves reading this, I wish you well and may God bless you with a vast amount of goodness and may your smile light the world.
There were times throughout the year when I truly wanted to wave the white flag and simply give up, because I didn't know where to turn, who to trust, and what to do. Things became blurred, facts became lies and there were no concrete answers in sight.
While I could very easily point the accusing finger at others, I take the blame for allowing others to twist my perspective and taint facts with things less than factual. Who's to say what is real anymore and does it really matter in the first place? Probably not.
What I can say is that I am truly surprised that I made it through the year. In some ways, I am probably a little disappointed that I did. This is especially true on those days when I feel like I was being attacked from every conceivable angle including from within.
Rather than go off on a long-winded blues jam, I just hope that 2011 gives me the strength and the clarity to see the goodness and just because someone claims to be a friend doesn't mean that they have my best interests and feelings in their heart. I hope that for the first time in a long time that I can feel something vaguely resembling peace and allow a blackened, dead soul to live again.
To anyone that finds themselves reading this, I wish you well and may God bless you with a vast amount of goodness and may your smile light the world.
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